I DO know

So my friend the other day published this blog called "I don't know." She talked all about how she didn't know where she was or what she was going to be doing in the next few years, few months, few days. She didn't know who she was going to be with, if she'll get a divorce, what she wanted to do with her life, or whether she would end up liking the life she leads. Most of all she said she didn't know when she would die, how she would die, or where she would be after she died. She said it scared her to death sometimes. I read this and started to wonder about myself, how I don't know, how I question everything everyday, leaving everything simply to possibility. But then I realized, I do know.

I may not know where I'll be in the next few days, months or years, but I know it's where God wants me. I may not know who I'm going to be with, but I know that God is holding someone out there for me, whether it's someone I've met or not. I know what I want to do with my life, but it is also very likely that God will change my plans. I don't know if I'll like the life I lead, but I know that as long as I'm with God and follow Him, He will like it and that's all that matters. I don't know when I'll die or how I'll die, but that's okay because I know that ultimately my life is in God's hands. And as for where I'll end up after I die, that I DO know. I will be with God, in Heaven because His Son has saved me from anything and everything that would send me to Hell. He has paid the price so I don't have to. And maybe life scares the hell out of me sometimes, but I know it's just because I'm not in control, and relinquishing that control to God can be the most difficult thing in the world, but I'm learning to let go. All that matters is that I DO know where I'll be. And I DO know who I'll be with. So dying doesn't scare me so much, but more so just the living. But it's okay because I know that God is in control. And that makes ALL the difference. =)